Poem - Internal Reflections Pt 1©

Internal reflections
Lead to
An internal collection
Of thoughts that provoke
Other thoughts which provoke
Certain emotions which invoke
Certain behaviors which stoke
Certain emotions
In me.
I use to wish they
Like rain
Would go away
But they never did
So I wrote 'em down instead
And they water thoughts within my head
Which roots something inside me to grow
Born to a father
Without a father
So how could he be an example
If he didn't have an example
Or the wherewithal to sample
Another choice for his son
Luckily I got more than one...
Sensitive inside yet
Tough on the outside
For fear
That the soft part on the inside
Would disappear
Or be devoured
By the outside world
Hurled
Into the darkness
That would eventually become light
And eventually become right
Even if it started out wrong
No sad song
Nor tears shed
The funeral was canceled
Cause I decided to live instead
But at birth they thought
I'd quickly die
But only the fear of death died in me
Which allows me to be free
And to love freely
Heart, mind, soul
Ps I adore you T.
I reflect inwardly
On the thoughts within me
The decisions I make for me
And the joy I enjoy daily
Giving thanks to the Most High
Standing tall I
Am proud of the emotions I invoke
Which provoke
The actions I take
Which make
Me who I am
Which will allow
Me to be
Exactly who I desire to be
The best version today
Of me
As I continue my
Internal collection
Of my
Internal reflections


Bless,
M.

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Be. Do. Have. The Path To Transcendence. ©

Be. Do. Have. The Path To Transcendence

We are often taught that in order to become (be), we must do certain things in order to Have certain things which will then allow us to Be a certain person.
The problem is we cannot truly control what we have at a given moment nor does what we do always translate in the real world to what we in theory thought would be our result.
Example is this - I want to be a loving person, so I will do what a loving person would do & get treated as a loving person and then I'll be a loving person and the cycle continues.
Based on my logic I would think that if I am "a loving person" (however I would define that) to other people that they will in turn treat me as a loving person. But is that absolutely true? Nope. I can never control how another person will act so if I am waiting to have them treat me as a loving person I am giving away my ability to be the cause in being able to be a loving person and instead I am at effect to other people's reaction. In essence I put the ability to become what I desire in the hands of people who I cannot control.
Now, when I choose to be a loving person then I will become a loving person - the power of my decision over and over in situation, scenario and relating to people - allows me to become what I want. Choosing to be transports me to being. Transcendence. In being a loving person, I will do what I (a loving person) will do and in turn have what I (a loving person) has. I am what I want through my choice, my decision and simply being it.
Simple? As a decision.
Easy? Not even close. But well worth my daily focus & efforts. At least that's what I believe.

Be. Do. Have.
Bless,
M.

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Poem - My Worst Fear (A Man's Eye View)©

I don't often write an introduction to my poems but I feel this one warrants one. Often in various media outlets and places where people gather to conversate we hear ofrelationships gone bad because of a cheating man. Rarely do we talk about the other side of the coin, rarely do we talk about the times when the man is faithful... Just saying.
Enjoy...

My worst fear
Is that we'd end up here
I mean our relating ship
Ain't sailing no where
Don't ask 'bout your day
Cause I don't even care
Truth be told
It's cause I don't think you care
Cause when I ask you to share
You gimme this blank stare
And the same answers all the time
"Nothing happened today
What's wrong with me?
Nothing I'm fine"
So I sit back
And continue to listen to you whine
And I don't say a word
As you pick up the phone
And make plans to dine
With a friend
From way back when
Some dude you been hanging with
You say since you were like 10
Logic say don't believe you
But I don't wanna do that math
My gut says ask more questions
But what choice do I have
Cause you tell me he's just a friend
But I'm your husband
But that band
On your finger
Isn't visible anymore
You say you took it off
To go down to the store
And it's by the sink
And "why I got to wear it for?"
So I just sit back
For the sake of the kids
I just continue to love
And hope to keep the peace where we live
But something's got to give
Something has to break
I mean I wake
In the middle of the night to hear
You on the phone giggling
So I go back to bed and wipe away the tears
My worst fear
Has become my reality
I just confirmed
My wife was cheating on me...

M.

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Poem - i Choose.©

T.
You're an apparition
And a mystery to me
Part of my past
Part of my future
i know everything
And nothing about You
All at the same time
You push me
And pull me
Simultaneously
To the brink of who i am
And who i'm destined to be
At times my eyes see our destination
And at others it's only faith which guides
Regardless of whatever comes Our way
Know it's by choice i dwell where i reside
Regardless of whatever comes Our way
Know i choose to be by your side.

M.

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